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I Can’t Read That!

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Dealing with the loss of ability to see things up close which comes with the aging process, also known as presbyopia, is one of those frustrating realities that sneaks up on you—and it’s even more maddening if you’ve spent years basking in the glory of perfect vision after Lasik. I had Lasik in October 2007, when I was 41 years old, to correct myopia (nearsightedness) and astigmatism. I loved the freedom I had from glasses or contact lenses for about 8 years. Then when I reached full menopause at the age of 49, me reading vision tanked like the Titanic.

I went from feeling invincible, seeing the world in crisp, vivid detail, to suddenly struggling with menus, ingredient labels, and my phone screen. It feels unfair, doesn’t it? At least I was aware of the distinct possibility that presbyopia would indeed set in at some point, and had many years of crisp, perfect vision. The only thing I wasn’t prepared for was how sly the onset of presbyopia was. One day, I was fine, and then the next, I found myself doing the whole “arm stretch” thing just to read my emails or check a text. I also wasn’t prepared for the emotional toll, basically having to admit defeat by having to carry around reading glasses or magnifiers when I had been free of them my entire life. It suddenly was a nuisance to try reading a restaurant menu or a nutrition label in dim lighting. The way I adapted to the need for reading glasses was to place three prescription pairs in specific places: bedroom nightstand, my desk, my handbag.

It’s not just the practical side of things; there’s also a sense of frustration because it feels like a step backward. After Lasik, I became so accustomed to being free from glasses or contacts—it’s this incredible feeling of independence. Then, when presbyopia hit, I had no choice but to get new glasses. It’s almost insulting to the effort and investment I had devoted to my eyes when I had Lasik.

Suddenly having to wear glasses again can mess with your confidence, too. It’s one of those subtle reminders of aging, even if you don’t feel old. Despite the fact that I have had to wear reading glasses for the last ten years, I still find myself frequently ignoring my presbyopic eyes, squinting to read a text on my phone, even if I have a pair of glasses nearby.

When Your Arms Are Too Short…

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As someone who grew up with myopia (nearsightedness), I never imagined that my reading vision would fail me.  Yet I have spent the last four years holding menus at arm’s length to make it easier to read the food selections.  Within the past year, I adopted the habit of grabbing my reading glasses first thing in the morning when I grab my phone.  Do you know why?  Because my close-up vision has become so dim that if I dare to construct a social media post without my glasses, I end up finding typos on my caption or hashtags.  I’ve even gotten to the point where I wear my glasses when sitting at the computer and reading a considerable amount of material, because it reduces eye strain.  

The end result is that I either grab glasses, or wish that my arms were longer.  I also wish that restaurants filled with romantic ambience would scrap the low light conditions in favor of slightly brighter light which would make it possible for all but the most elderly and vision-challenged to see.  

Presbyopia (the age related stiffening of the lens of the eye, which interferes with its ability to contract and diffract the light) has reared its ugly head and taken up residence permanently in my daily life.   And despite the fact that I had the knowledge base to realize that presbyopia would color my life after the age of 50, I am still surprised at how sudden and noticeable the vision changes have been.  

I went from not being able to see the big E on the Snellen eye chart from my childhood into my late 40’s, to struggling to read receipts in my 50’s and wondering,  “Is that a 6, or an 8?”, or, “Is that a 3 or a 5?”  It’s pretty frustrating.  There have been instances in which I have picked up products with the intention of reading the product ingredients, but I often cannot read them at all.  

What’s really strange is that it makes me feel a bit disconnected from the world, since once sense is noticeably dulled. Who else feels that way as a result of having age-related loss of near vision?